Something About Fate...

Beneath the water,
I have sold my soul to suffocation.
And when I come to the surface,
I will refuse to swim,
for my heart is waterlogged,
and soaked in your sadness.

I'll take all of your pain,
if you promise to just 
drown me in all your love. 

I saw an old couple the other day walking, holding hands, and laughing. It was like each wrinkle upon their faces told a different story of why they loved each other. Each day, a different reason to love, a different reason to stay together; every wrinkle taught me that they simply never got used to the feeling of what it felt like to walk next to each other, to hold each other.

Today, I am not here to wonder where that kind of love has gone, and I'm sure as hell not going to go searching for it right now! I'm much too tired to do that at the moment. With your knees weak, and head exhausted, the feet inside your heart refuse to stand and run, so that's why you must allow your chest to fly. Sometimes even when you feel like you cannot breathe, these are the moments you were meant to float away. Float away from your body and linger in the embellishments of love like a lonely cloud stuck against a sky it doesn't belong in, and  then wait, just wait...

I was once told that you are supposed to let love just hit you, and although I agree deeply, there is much more to it. Yes, if you go searching for love, these are the moments where you most likely will never find it. But if you just sit around and do nothing, nothing at all, you are also bound to feel nothing. This seems like a catch 22, yeah? The answer is NO! If you truly believe in hope and think with an open mind, there are far more than only two ways to do everything. Prove me wrong... I'll disagree no matter your argument. Sorry.

Okay, so we have:

1.Go search for love
2. Let love find you

Then we have my method, the one I found in my dreams:

3. Work as a team, You & Fate, Together...

People think Fate is something where you only have a connection to one person, and no matter what, everything happens for a reason and it will find it's way, and you and this other person will end up together. Although this is beautiful, but for me, having Fate with one person is much too simple...
I believe we have Fate with more than one other person.

"I am the wisest man in the world, for I know only one thing, and that is that I know nothing"
               -Socrates

Okay, I posted that quote after what I just said to explain to you that my theory of fate holds no more factual truth than yours or the next persons. It is just how I feel. So Let me explain it more...

I believe we have Fate with many people, not only in love, but in friendship and just simple interaction as well. But I also believe you cannot just sit back and expect Fate to do all of the work for you; if you feel any connection at all, you must act on it, because there is no evidence that Fate will catch it as it drifts away. I believe that Fate comes from the universe and it comes from a power that we as humans simply cannot comprehend, I believe something allows us a moment of meeting each other, walking by each other, seeing each other, then it leave us with the option of acting on these moments.

I'll give an example of some situations:

1. A Interaction of Friendship (Living Angels):
It was about one year ago when I was driving to my internship, the world weighing on my mind, and I felt lost in the thoughts of everything. The cashier at the gas station I saw every morning, him and I had the same stupid conversation about the weather and how we wondered if the sun was going to come out anytime soon?

 I said: "Have a good day man.." and he replied: "Same to you Michael"..
Then I was outside pumping my gas when he ran out and said: "Michael, come back in here!"
I didn't really give a shit about anything that day and was in no hurry, so I made my way inside.

Then, there he stood with a large hot coffee and said: "I bet you it doesn't rain today, I think it's going to clear up as soon as you drive on outta here. Here's a coffee, I know how much you love your coffee" Then he giggled. A weird giggle it was, but I enjoyed the presence of happiness that day.

I told the man thank you, thank you so much. Then I began my drive to work, and I shit you not, the sky began to clear up. It was like the clouds moved away, away from my chest, and I felt freedom in my throat.

2. A Simple Interaction of Love:
I once walked by a beautiful girl in the library back at Coastal. Her hair so blonde, her eyes a blinding blue. She smelled of the oceans forgiveness, and I smelled like left over whiskey -Even Williams- you know, the cheap stuff. When our legs walked in sync by each other, as our eyes barely touched, something punched me in the chest... it was a heavy fist of a Fate that I would never grow to know. I walked by her, That's it.  Call me crazy, but I felt like I've felt her before, I felt like I loved her before. In past or future life, or in my dreams.

3. The Breaking of the Already Broken:
There was once a girl, so beautiful and broken. We met in the hallways of naive hearts and scrawny limbs, all so unaware of the power we held within the way we walked together during passing time. Her eyes taught me that pain was meant to be seen, and her scars made me want to die, made me want to bleed. For her. She screamed to feel alive, so I put a heart in her chest... my heart. Then we let fate slip away, and it was beautiful. We didn't trap each other anymore, we unchained ourselves, and walked away in different directions. But the only problem was, I forgot to grab my heart. I walked around for a couple years with a hole in my soul the size that only infinity shovels could dig. I was empty, and cold, and I almost knew what her scars felt like when I screamed.

4. A Complicated Interaction of Love: 
She tells me that another universe connects us, and I believe her. I tell her we were born in the stars and meant to gaze the moon together, but we may never touch. She made me feel again, my heart, my soul, my feet and how they were meant to walk forward. She made me dream, when so many years I had nightmares. The kiss between us is teasing, the tangling of our pain creates a happiness, and without her today, I don't know if I would have ever left the darkness. I cannot call her mine, and I am not hers. Yet, maybe never, maybe someday... if we ever act on in, not yet though, not yet though.

5. Friends Like Family:
I have friends that remember when the only thing I cared about was becoming a ninja or a power ranger. I have friends I met and drank with, and we told stories about broken hearts, lost dreams, and happiness together. I have friends that I will never forget, but never see again. I have friends in states I'll never travel to again. I have friends in countries that I'll never know if I'll get the chance of going back too... But I also have friends that mean more to me than everyone I just said. These friends have the same blood inside their veins, I know they do. I wear their heart on my sleeve, aside my own. They protect my heart.

I saw an old couple walking the other day... their hearts sang to me a song, something about how they knew who I was. Something about how they were me, and they were you. Something about how we will all be okay, Fate is by our side, but we must be by its side as well.

The old couple faded away into the air. The cars passed, and the sky wrinkled. I think they were from another universe, a past life, or maybe the future. I think they were you and I, dancing in the glory of just walking together. I think they were trying to tell us something... Something about love...

something about Fate...